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Rockin' the single life.

I did not get married today. I couldn't stop thinking about another me, living in a world a couple of clicks from this one who was getting married. I felt her with me all day, though she wasn't thinking about me, she was too busy.

We did have a very nice party with a great mix of people from Rock Point School, from the co-op, from Japan and of course my family. They were all there to support me and it wasn't even my birthday. Even my uncle Gene called to remind me to keep my heart and mind open.  I didn't want it  to end because it was impossible to for me to see beyond this day.

My modus operandi so far has been to take tihngs one at a time and to just keep plodding through, and to let myself cry whenever possible. Unfortunately, I've been still in the apartment with Brian so he sees it the most. there have been a lot of things in the past couple of weeks that lead me to beleive he's already seeing someone else. Covert phone calls and so on, and staying out all night. it baffles me that he could be so much of an asshole to not have the decency to at least wait until i'm out of the fucking house.

And I will be starting Monday. I got a keeyute apartment near downtown and i can nearly afford it. Plus it's NOT a studio and I won't have roomies so who cares if there is no oven? I can walk to and from work, and start to figure out who I am again.

Comments

Can I just say that the fact that you had a party on what was supposed to be your wedding day is SO F'ING BADASS?!??!!!

Way to stick it to the man, Becky. You should already know this, but you're better off doing exactly what you're doing right now. You deserve to have your own place and your own space to figure out who you are and what you want, dammit. You rule.
it baffles me that he could be so much of an asshole to not have the decency to at least wait until i'm out of the fucking house.


If this is the case, it's so much better that you learned this before you married him. Y'know?

Keep your focus on the future... you've got good things coming!!
boxing kitten

July 2007

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